Wednesday, March 31st, 2010
I think that it started with a poem that I wrote in Catholic school (Holy Family) in the 5th(?) grade for a contest, my sense of listening and its connection to what in Japan/Zen would be called mu (nothingness) or ku (emptiness) (or as I read Bataille: “imminent immensity”, and to which some call “sacred”). We were to pick a title (I think), or a theme, and write a piece. I had chosen “Come Follow Me” as my theme and title. Up to this point I had had no particular religious inclination or feeling. The Catholic rituals every Sunday and holidays (including my birthday) were a routine hour long test of my understanding. I remember thinking at one point that the priest must have been Jesus, or G.o.d. because of the reverence that everyone showed him.
I remember really wanting to put my guts into this poem – or as much of that as a fifth-grader could. I do not remember the specific feeling that I got a hold of, or how well it translated into the poem. I remember that it was the sense of quietness that I felt as an expanse that I tried to express in the poem…
“It’s a feeling in your heart, a voice in your soul that says, Come follow me”
I do remember not putting any particular face on this force… and I think the personification of there being a leader was inherent in the theme I had chosen but not in this feeling I had in my person / experience. I, coincidentally, won some big prize and had to read the poem in front of other parents and students at some Archdiocese event for all the winners.
In composing the poem I remember listening in order to ascertain what could be meant by the theme I had chosen. I listening intently to myself. I Listened within, to reach without- to reach what might be calling to me to follow them/it. This might be the first instance of my practice of listening. It was the first instance of fusing art with quietude.
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